Tuesday, December 9, 2008

I read the last blog dated Nov 10. Now we once again are back in the States. We are here to see if the something that showed up on Don's PET scan is a return of the cancer. We went to South Africa to have the scan done. It was a routine checkup and the one thing we had been concerned about from a prior exam, a spot on the right lung, turned out to be just what the U.S. oncologist thought it was, scar tissue. However something unexpected showed on the scan, something on Don's tongue. So here we are again. It is 7:25AM and in three hours we will be in the ENT doctor's office. I don't expect to have an answer today. He will most likely need to biopsy it first. I have been praying of course, and so have so many of you . We have been lifted in prayers for healing since the beginning. What we went through all this year so far is easier than what we go through now. Recurrence is the worst thing that most patients go through. So I have been crying out to God to comfort me, to help me get through this and of course He has. I read Mike Cope's blog on Dec 3 and he talked about Peter walking on the water. He says Jesus never asked Peter to leave the boat and walk on the water. He said Jesus can walk on the water and He is headed for me in the boat. I needed to hear that Jesus wouldn't leave me thru all of this and prove my faith to him but rather just wait for him to come to me in my terrified state. Just like th apostles were terrified in the storm and Jesus was on his way to them, I know Jesus is on his way to me also. It isn't about me but about HIm. Jesus is the focus of my terror not the waves. Thank you God for coming in the spirit of Jesus just because you knew my terror.